“Nutrition will not cure you.”
My endocrinologist interrupted me twice to say this. It has been three months since I started my new diet and lifestyle, and I usually feel like a million bucks compared to the zombie I was before (I need bloodwork to confirm things). I waited, then restated: “What I am trying to say is that I feel better.” He chided me and then said, “We’ll DO the bloodwork, and then you can come in and we’ll chat some more about this.” I got off the phone as quickly as possible.
In frustration, I then asked my OBGYN group for a referral for a brand new endocrinologist, hoping to get a little more of a listening ear from the new doctor. I requested the bloodwork I need along with a second opinion on my case. This doctor was as bad as the first. She scoffed before I was done with my inital sentence: “I was supposed to have surgery but was told I could try nutrition to see if it would help.”
What is the deal? I cannot ask questions, cannot look at options, cannot try the least invasive method first? I must roll over and let you cut out my entire adrenal gland?
I am beginning to realize just how skewed even the most well-meaning doctors can be. I MUST manage them managing me. We’re not in Little House on the Prairie here, with the doctor that cares so much they’ll explain, or their efforts are totally vested in your best options. I trusted these doctors, and they used me to pay their bills with their preferences over my body and the rest of my life. I will forgive them — but I will not hesitate to challenge them ever again. Poor doctors. I know, they truly think they are right. I pity them.
“Resentment is like drinking poison and then hoping it will kill your enemies.” — Nelson Mandela
I have been working for a while on this other blog… I have been sick a lot this year, and we finally found out I have a tumor. Yikes. But it turns out I will be able to avoid surgery. Hooray!
For anyone who is interested, please follow the link below to my quirky, fun-loving, authentic blog on the subject. Thank you for reading friends.
Happy World Breastfeeding Month! I am inspired by the events this week at The Leaky B@@B and am planning three upcoming posts in the spirit of supporting the beauty, health and importance of breastfeeding. Welcome all who need encouragement and/or are curious!
To start off, today I just want to reminisce….
Twenty Places I Have Nursed My Children
(listed in order of the impact they had on me to be more confident)
20. In the rank bathroom at a restaurant.
19. Sweating under a light sheet covering in a meeting at church — the cover was ripped off by my unhappy nursling and I pretty much flashed another leader guy, who was AWESOME and didn’t even blink twice.
18. On the couch, sweating under a light sheet covering at a Bible study full of single guys (all of whom are either about to be married, are now happily married, or even expecting kids… kinda nice to realize I didn’t scar them forever).
17. Around the corner on the stairs without a cover, at #18.
16. Discreetly but without a cover, sitting fourth row back from the front of church, because I finally realized my church is AWESOME.
15. Discreetly but without a cover, at Starbucks at an outside table.
14. Metro bus (babies don’t wait)
13. At the hospital after C-section birth and VBAC (same hospital for both)
12. In the car after a funeral in the country (dirt roads are bumpy… see #14)
11. In bed while simultaneously cuddling with husband
10. In a living room with other moms and their nurslings
09. At the zoo, with a bunch of nursing moms, surrounded by a bunch of other mammals nursing
08. In a cozy armchair in my pastor’s living room, bought specifically for nursing moms who might visit
07. On the couch, with my almost two-year-old toddler on one side and my newborn on the other (a.k.a. Tandem Nursing)
06. In mixed company, at my house, because it’s hard to get out with a nursling
05. At my Doula (now a Midwife)’s house because she’s awesome and has parties for her Mamas and their families
04. At my in-law’s house, where it has become the supported norm for me to nurse my speaking & walking toddler
03. In the church nursery while helping care for other kids
02. At Young-N-Restless Resale store, where there are chairs just for nursing in
01. In the brand-new rocking chair bought for me by a friend shortly before my daughter was born
Thank you to those of you who have supported me nursing along the way. I hope to help others down the line, for the rest of my life! It has truly been a lovely, wonderful, life-changing, life-giving experience. I am grateful to everyone who has said “Go ahead!”
I clearly remember being a girl, helping my Mom make No-Bake cookies by the wax-paper-sheet-full for our “BackYard VBS” summer meetings. Once a summer, we ran out and invited kids from our neighborhood over to our backyard every day for a week. I remember the bright sun, the healthy green grass, and our narrow kitchen where Mom let me help with her cookie preparation like I was a little sous chef. What perfect delight.
So, it was the mid-80s in Shawnee, Oklahoma. A group of happy, sweaty kids would run into our yard and crowd around my Mom as she told Bible stories for a few minutes. We played backyard games like Red Rover, sang kids’ songs or did some kind of activity, and we ALWAYS ended with a snack. A VERY YUMMY snack. (I believe God cares about delicious food as much as kids do, and I am not kidding.)
I remember the first time Mom and I mused together over a newly-finished batch of No Bakes that there must be some hidden trick to making them come out right. One which we did not always get. Actually, we rarely got it right. Perhaps it was the humidity, or the ingredients (if we ran out of something and had to substitute). From one batch to the next we would sometimes get a gloppy mess. Or, on the flip side, they might come out rock hard. In the end, we did our best and dubbed them “Gooey Cookies” to signify how unpredictable they were. We never stopped making them though!
Despite the rarity of a moist, soft No Bake cookie outcome, “Gooey Cookies” became a family staple. I still have a seasonal summer craving after my childhood Backyard VBS experiences. It became my go-to recipe for any hardcore chocolate needs, and it is the recipe I now pull out for quick-cookie situations. If you’ve never had them, YOU ARE SERIOUSLY MISSING OUT! If you have had them and disagree, your recipe might just need a little TLC.
Here’s the run down from my kitchen. Let me know how you do it if you see something different!
No Bake Cookies
In a 2-quart-ish pan, combine:
2 c. sugar (I have used as low as 1 1/4 cup successfully, usually use nat’l cane)
One stick butter (usually use unsalted)
3 Tbsp. cocoa powder
1/2 c. milk (usually use whole)
Begin heating the mix on high heat with candy thermometer (makes a difference but does not always ensure perfect cookies) clipped in place (not touching the bottom of the pan), and separately prepare:
3 c. oats (I usually use 5 minute but quick is also good).
1/2 c. peanut butter (I usually use natural)
1 tsp. vanilla
A counter lined with kitchen parchment paper or wax paper
A hot pad for the pan
A tsp.- or tbsp.-sized spoon for cookie dropping
Let the mixture on the stove boil til soft-ball stage. **On non-humid days (below 50% humidity) this is about 1 1/2 minutes. On humid days it can be three to five minutes (you can add a pinch of salt to lower the boiling point). Soft-ball stage is when you can let a drop fall into a clear glass of cool water and it forms a solid/soft ball at the bottom — ideally, what you want your cookie to look like!** Remove from heat and quickly add the other ingredients. Stir quickly and begin dropping the cookies immediately. They should set up quickly as they cool and you can eat them almost immediately. If they don’t set, pull out a spoon or fork and go for it. Yep, you heard me. Right off the countertop.
What I have run into as the “problem” (never stopped me from eating them) is the variations possible on this recipe, causing the cookies to come out too hard or too soft. In my mind, the cause could be anything: 5 minute oats or Quick oats? Jiffy Peanut Butter or Natural (no salt or sugar)? Butter or margarine? Humid days or non-humid days (where I live, high humidity is a way of life for most of the year)! Processed sugar or Cane sugar; Cocoa powder or baking chocolate (or Hershey’s kisses)! The only thing I have not done successfully in any form is to double the recipe in one batch. (I’m open to suggestions!)
My decided plan is to edit this post/update with the variations I have this summer what the occasion was for, and see what the outcomes each time were. I am up for anyone else’s experiments too! Let’s see how well we can do.
07-05-13. Friends coming over! Used 5-min. oats, cocoa powder, 2 full cups cane sugar, no-salt butter, natural PB, and boiled to just above soft ball stage (243 degrees-ish). No added salt, Today’s humidity 34%. GOOEY COOKIE outcome this time…. shaking my head. I still ate them but didn’t serve them because they were way too grainy.
07-07-13. Anniversary day! Used 1 1/4 cups cane sugar, boiled to well above soft ball stage (245 degrees-ish). No added salt, but used a wider pan and added 2 c. raisins!!! Today’s humidity 50%. Crumbly cookie outcome this time (as you can see, I could not get the whole pan scooped into cookie form before it dried out). Shaking my head. Still ate ‘em!
07-08-13. Plumbers at the road needed a treat! Used 1 1/4 cups cane sugar, about a 1/3 c. PB, boiled to almost hard-ball stage (more on that in a second). Added a pinch of kosher salt, used my regular pot to cook in, and mixed up some powdered milk since we were out of whole. Current humidity 60% (rained all morning). It took forever to get to soft ball stage, then suddenly shot up to hard ball stage so I had to act fast. It didn’t get as much PB or any vanilla as a result. I mixed in the oats and PB I could scoop out super-fast, then dumped it out of the pan and patted it into a big circle, which I then scooped off into individual bites as the cookie mix stayed just soft enough just long enough. Weird but true. I have never done it that way before but I wanted it out of the hot pan. Actually a really great cookie outcome! They were soft and held together. Yum!
08-02-13. Kids and Mommy needed a treat! Used 1 1/4 cups cane sugar, a full c. of nat’l PB (the stir kind — not whipped), and also have increased the chocolate to 4 tbsp. Added a pinch of sea salt, humidity was 63%. Last but not least, I have finally decided to throw away my candy thermometer, and now I just use the method of dripping some of the “candy” into a cup of cold water to see if it’s soft ball stage yet. It works the best for me because then I am ready to drop cookies at the right stage best on a picture of how they’ll come out, not what a thermometer says. More hands-on. I like that. They came out deliciously perfect this time actually.
Are you still here? Go make cookies! Give some away if you need an excuse!
God bless you, friends. Thanks for reading!
Once upon a time, I knew a brave woman who lived a pioneer lifestyle in many ways (God rest her soul). She told me I would have hated it. Maybe she was right. I disliked her for saying it, anyhow. Part of me wrestled with the fact that she may be right: about the life being hard, or me not having what it took. I wasn’t sure which she meant, and I was too afraid to ask. Maybe both!
I have come to believe that we are all potential pioneers, if we have the guts to wake up and look at life with a new set of eyes… then, to stay awake! and press in to that pioneer mindset.
For the past year and three months my family has been embarking on an incredible set of adventures. I will tell more later about how and why, and what spearheaded each part of it. Some of the story is powerful and moving to myself — a “Thin Space” even, when I look back, though I could not have told you that in the middle of it. From health and wealth to hearth and home, we have been working like true pioneers, walking foot by painful foot, or heaving our hungry hearts and harshly hewn wagons over wintry ruts and winding rivers.
Did I hate it? Oh yes, certainly, parts of it. Was it worth it? Oh… my…. a resounding and reverent “Yes!”
After this intro I will share with you an adventure both life-giving and life-taking. An ongoing journey that is most incredibly God-centering. I am humbled, yet more built up than ever. The shallow parts of me that remain have been drained and dredged out into deeper pools which are being refilled, and I know God is not done yet. I may yet be a reservoir someday. I dance in thankfulness and rejuvenated hope.
More to come… and apologies (kind of) for the long wait between posts….